Bland Update

[create_destiny]

I haven't posted in a while. When I'm afraid, depressed or just flat-out uninspired I mostly keep my mouth shut and my typing fingers to myself.

Nevertheless, here's a random update on my life:

I quit coffee. I felt like shit for several weeks and decided I needed a change. These days I'm drinking green tea and I'm feeling better. Better but also weird. I really miss coffee though. The ups were fabulous, but the downs were hell. Plus, I'll probably save myself $50 per month. The boys at Dutch Bros. will miss my tips, I'm sure.

My boyfriend and I are moving into a two bedroom house. His 40 lb. Australian Cattle dog is sure to eat one of my cats. When that happens I can be contacted at the local Mental Health facility and my ex-boyfriend can be found in a van, down by the river.

I'm uncertain about the long-term future. Where I'll live, what to do about school and the job that sucks vital life-energy from my soul. Oh, yeah, and the boyfriend, too. Marriage scares me.

Comments

[san-simeon-girl.livejournal.com]

You're funny!

I understand about avoiding posting when depressed, etc. Congrats on the switch to green tea--those antioxidants will keep you young! And I think it's just plain yummy (I put Splenda in mine).

Marriage scares me too, but that's because I don't trust my boyfriend to keep being nice to me after we're married. You got trust issues?

[createdestiny.livejournal.com]

I'm not really sure what my issue is. I think I might be afraid of living a boring hum-drum life that's all about the bills, lawn care and what to have for dinner. I'm more comfortable outside the mainstream and I guess I view married life as inside the mainstream, aka "boring".

Plus, my boyfriend and I have different religious beliefs and it makes me nervous.

[san-simeon-girl.livejournal.com]

Funny, I used to be afraid of that; now I wish for it. I just want to live domestic life and not have to worry about being exciting or interesting all the time.