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[create_destiny]

A friend of mine in Buffalo wrote to me recently, lamenting Cobain's demise. I lamented back. Told him I haven't listened to any Nirvana since 1994. Then a few hours later I'm channel surfing and I stop on Nirvana's "Unplugged in New York." I keep it there. The Boyfriend hears this and asks me from the next room, "Do you still like Nirvana?" And......I can't answer that question with a simple "yes" or "no." I launch into a diatribe about Kurt, the spirit of this age, meat-eating orchids, absurdity and surrealism in art and half way into this I'm shaking and crying. That's not a question that can be answered with a simple yes or no.

Tori Amos singing Nirvana's "Smells Like Teen Spirit"
This haunts me.

Comments

[metalgypsy.livejournal.com]

I have a lot of compassion for people who commit suicide- it's not something anyone does when they are well enough to think about it, or to think there is anything worse than the hell they are in. That is why it is dangerous to have a gun, because there are a lot of people who will kill themselves before they have time to move past their mental state if they have a gun in their house. I personally never want to know where a gun is accessible.

I used to secretly collect names as a monastic of suicides and pray for them during liturgies- i wish i still had that list- there is one behind the altar in KC and one in Alaska- it had like 50 people on it- a few were friends.

I never got into Kurt Cobain until after he died and i was praying for him as a nun because I was still mad at Nirvana for selling out punk, but that is another story and argument for another time.