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create_destinyRain is traditionally considered a sign of God's blessing. Too much of God's blessing will kill you. Sometimes I think this drought in California is my fault. Like God is punishing the entire state for the wretchedness of one girl in the north valley. I read a book recently about Afghanistan and the author mentioned a seven-year drought in the region and it relieved me to think, I know THAT one wasn't my fault.
What the hell kind of ego-maniacal delusion of grandeur makes one think their patheticness is important enough for God to withhold rain for three years in an entire state? I don't even know if there's a word for that in the DSM Reference Book of Mental Illnesses but the words ape of humility come to mind.
I miss rainy Indiana summers: the sudden mid-day darkness, the alchemical scent of anticipation and ionic stillness in the air.......
Then a deafening CRACK of thunder, scaring the piss out of dogs and babies, followed by the clatter of white rain coming down in sheaths on houses, streets and cars, like the whole town just entered an automatic car wash.
Two days ago, when I walked out of the building I spend 40 hours a week in, I was greeted by large, low-hanging, 3-D, fluffy, white clouds in a deep blue sky. It was like somebody hit the "I'm Feeling Lucky" button on a photo in Picassa. It took my breath away. You don't normally see 3-D clouds like this in Chico, just smog, which I've recently learned is more China's fault than the Bay Area's.
It's very rare that a thunder storm comes to the Chico area, and when it does it freaks people out. They act like it's judgment day or something. But it makes me want to run outside and fling myself into it's arms and say, God, how I've missed you.
What the hell kind of ego-maniacal delusion of grandeur makes one think their patheticness is important enough for God to withhold rain for three years in an entire state? I don't even know if there's a word for that in the DSM Reference Book of Mental Illnesses but the words ape of humility come to mind.
I miss rainy Indiana summers: the sudden mid-day darkness, the alchemical scent of anticipation and ionic stillness in the air.......
Then a deafening CRACK of thunder, scaring the piss out of dogs and babies, followed by the clatter of white rain coming down in sheaths on houses, streets and cars, like the whole town just entered an automatic car wash.
Two days ago, when I walked out of the building I spend 40 hours a week in, I was greeted by large, low-hanging, 3-D, fluffy, white clouds in a deep blue sky. It was like somebody hit the "I'm Feeling Lucky" button on a photo in Picassa. It took my breath away. You don't normally see 3-D clouds like this in Chico, just smog, which I've recently learned is more China's fault than the Bay Area's.
It's very rare that a thunder storm comes to the Chico area, and when it does it freaks people out. They act like it's judgment day or something. But it makes me want to run outside and fling myself into it's arms and say, God, how I've missed you.
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Date: 2009-03-01 05:02 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2009-03-01 05:47 am (UTC)Hey, at least you don't think random strangers on the street are talking about you and plotting against you because you might be the next Christ. Or possibly an alien that everyone else sees differently than what you see yourself. Or the harbinger of world destruction. Or a walking black hole. Or the focal character in a worldwide collective delusion. Or an artificial intelligence that scans things with eye-lasers and receives encoded transmissions from Uranus via quantum electro-chemical spooky-brain-activity-at-a-distance. See, you're not so bad - imagine what kind of past transgressions I'm working off!
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Date: 2009-03-01 06:36 am (UTC)On a good day, I'm very pronoid: I believe the universe is conspiring to change me for the better and shower me and everyone who has ever lived with eternal, out-of-this-world blessings.
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Date: 2009-03-01 03:57 pm (UTC)As a life-long member of the California Club... I want to say that I recall many lightning/thunder storms from childhood. As for adulthood, I think I've encountered one. Odd, and sad, as there is nothing like a good thunder storm.
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Date: 2009-03-02 04:09 pm (UTC)I'd gladly send some of our rainy days out West if it were within my power to do so.
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Date: 2009-03-03 12:42 am (UTC)Oh how I miss Miami thunderstorms!!!
Beautifully written - thank you for sharing!!!
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Date: 2009-03-03 11:44 pm (UTC)