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[create_destiny]

A friend of mine in Buffalo wrote to me recently, lamenting Cobain's demise. I lamented back. Told him I haven't listened to any Nirvana since 1994. Then a few hours later I'm channel surfing and I stop on Nirvana's "Unplugged in New York." I keep it there. The Boyfriend hears this and asks me from the next room, "Do you still like Nirvana?" And......I can't answer that question with a simple "yes" or "no." I launch into a diatribe about Kurt, the spirit of this age, meat-eating orchids, absurdity and surrealism in art and half way into this I'm shaking and crying. That's not a question that can be answered with a simple yes or no.

Tori Amos singing Nirvana's "Smells Like Teen Spirit"
This haunts me.

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Re: Gah, fucking Nirvana. :|

[ygolonac.livejournal.com]

My saying that a person does not cease to be human when they decide to commit suicide is not the same as me saying that I uphold "self-loathing and self-destruction and escapism as the human virtues". It simply means that I have some empathy towards people that find themselves unable to continue.

And then you're spinning off on some kind of ranting tangent again.

You have this tendency to take one small thing a person says or does and go off into fantasyland regarding their motives and thoughts.

How in the world you go from me saying choosing suicide does not make someone inhuman to that meaning I want to lower the bar for everyone and 'fuck ideals' and the rest of that is really messed up. It's like I say that little bit, you respond in your head and then your brain makes up responses for me (which you don't write down) and then your respond to the things you imagine I said, or something like that.

Really bizarre.