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[create_destiny]

A friend of mine in Buffalo wrote to me recently, lamenting Cobain's demise. I lamented back. Told him I haven't listened to any Nirvana since 1994. Then a few hours later I'm channel surfing and I stop on Nirvana's "Unplugged in New York." I keep it there. The Boyfriend hears this and asks me from the next room, "Do you still like Nirvana?" And......I can't answer that question with a simple "yes" or "no." I launch into a diatribe about Kurt, the spirit of this age, meat-eating orchids, absurdity and surrealism in art and half way into this I'm shaking and crying. That's not a question that can be answered with a simple yes or no.

Tori Amos singing Nirvana's "Smells Like Teen Spirit"
This haunts me.

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[robin-andersen.livejournal.com]

I came very late to Nirvana, like maybe in the last year or so. But I'm much older than the age bracket that Nirvana was/is popular with, so what can I say - always a day late and a dollar short.
So the answer has to be "yes" if you had such trouble answering it. But it's a much more complicated "yes" now with all the time passage.

As for his death (suicide? even from what little I knew about him at the time of his death, I doubted suicide), it's a terrible tragedy. I used to believe that suicide was an awful thing, the "sin of despair". I still think it's awful and does irrepairable damage to those left behind, but the person who does it must be in such horrific pain that he/she sees no way out. And for that, those people_deserve_ compassion. In their head, there is no "tomorrow will be a better day" or "this will hurt my loved ones". It's just mind numbing soul sucking pain and torture. When you're in that frame of mind....
well, for what it's worth, that's my opinion. I'm no expert. But yeah, I would have liked to see Nirvana still making music now...